After 2pm:
I swear, I'm dead. I think I fall too deep and I crashed real hard this time round. Yeah, karma has hit me hard enough. I guess I have no choice but to accept it. I can't believe I did love him so much that I have been crying my eyes out for like 4 hours already or maybe I just can't accept the fact. I already got used to his smell, his skin, his everything. I regret, I should have trusted him more. Now, he doesn't even want me back. Maybe I should look on the bright side, if he didn't even want me, then it only shows how much he loved me. Sigh... Once again my past has came back to haunt me. The fear of someone leaving/ hurting me has actually been secretly building up.
I learnt my lesson already, I promised myself this. I would never ever EVER fall in love with anyone or anybody else. If I do, this guy would be a husband material. But not now at least. I'm tired of getting hurt or simply I just don't trust anyone.
Okay, stop it Nicole. You are going to find a new guy with a nicer smell and a someone that can play pool better than him!
Before 2pm:
Mahong with Nigel and Eugene last night at my house!!!
Philip asked me to be his model for the trophy... Fucking huge sial. Sigh, it will never be mine :(

This was on Monday. Pool wiht Nigel and Eugene and Zhee! Probably one of the best pic we had... Whatever Nicole.